我的未来我做主！不是你！

再次为了梦想而烦恼。

我不想念护士课程了。老妈劝我不要读因为做的工都是肮脏的。

我也那么认为。可是我不介意呀。

既然你不想我念护士，那你又要我念物理治疗或药剂师？

虽然物理治疗很清洁，做的工都蛮简单。

只是要帮忙病人做物理治疗让他们的四肢恢复能力。

但我就是没兴趣。我的目标不是成人或老人。

而是婴儿！我看我还是向往我的首选---妇产科或小儿科吧。

我真的对物理治疗没兴趣。给我一个感觉很难照顾。整天听他们唠叨。

听就觉得烦。还是婴儿声音比较好听。

对不起老妈，我没听你的建议。但我会考虑考虑。

朋友，我觉得你也向往你的目标比较好。

不要因为他人的建议就去念。后悔的是你自己。

SERIOUSLY???

Hey blog. As usual, I read newspaper today.

I read a news that a lot of nurses are now facing difficulties where they can't get a job after they had finished their syllabus in either uni or college.

I was like, ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

Taking nurse course but hard to get a job?

Oh my gosh my dear government!

You must have been kidding me!

Now how?  Intended to take nurses course after spm.

But now come and tell me hard to get job when finished school.

Shall I still consider nurse as my dream?

Or shall I move on to doctor's career? 

Paediatric? Obgyn? Which one?

God, can you please tell me what career should I choose?

It's really hard to make a decision...

Ouch.. can't believe that school's going to start next  week.

Am not ready to meet all the people yet. especially haters.

And also form five. Last year in secondary school.

I must work hard.. I swear I will do the best as I can. God bless me =]

Merry Christmas!! =D

hey blog. you know what's date today? It's 24.12.2012 and it's Christmas Eve! 

Tomorrow is Christmas! Less than 2 hours! Can't wait for it!! =D 

Mummy organised a gathering dinner today. She invited our relatives to come and enjoy this eucharistic night! 

Isn't that awesome huh? =D Received present from those relatives came just now =) 

Now waiting time to go to St Joseph church at 11:00pm. Go there to snatch seats! 

Missal time will be on 1200 am in the midnight! =DD 

Well, wish everyone have a blessed Christmas! May you continue be blessed by our Jesus Christ the saviour =D 

Enjoy this day with everyone whom you love ! =D 

Busy Week =O

Hey blog. Sorry for not updating you for two days.

Well. Recently, my life is kind of busy.

Full of Christmas activities.

I went to church last few days for practicing and rehearsal for an activity held on last Thursday.

Thanks God the activity has successfully organised.

Yesterday was my beloved brother's birthday.

Went to The Junk Restaurant to celebrate his birthday with my family.

The food were very nice but kinda expensive. Big portion per dish.

Nothing happened today. Went out with mummy and neighbours.

What about tomorrow? Going to hidden treasure? =D

Monday hang out with besties and of course at the midnight, I am going to church!

Monday is Christmas eve and I am going to church to countdown! Isn't that awesome huh? =D

Tuesday is Christmas and we are going to visit our relatives! Going to have a cup of wine!

Going to play with babies aka my cousins! Hooray!

Having a wedding dinner on Wednesday! Sad that my high heels were broken :( what to wear for shoes?

Going to visit sisters at camellite church on Thursday with neighbors!

Gonna ask mummy buy something for them!

All of these are my programmes for this week.

Isn't sounds busy? Yeah. Christmas season is kinda busy!

I haven't join carolling! That will be much busier!

Everyday practice at church and going for carolling at different places! 

Regret for not joining carolling!!!  I must go next year!!

Teehee.

20.12.2012

Look at the title today. 20.12.2012 . Isn't it a great number huh?

A special date to everyone. A nice date to remember.

Especially to those couples. Or this maybe a chance for the singles to confess to their loved one.

What about me?  What does this date mean to me?

Well. I have got no feelings toward it. I am single.

To me, it's still a day. Like normal. Nothing different.

Went to church for children Christmas activity just now.

Youth members of the church are required to help out the activity.

I am one of them.

A little boy named Theodore chiu is very cute! His brother too.

I love them. Little brother is very naughty.  But Theodore isn't. 

Instead, he's friendly. We love him. I love chatting with him to improve my English. XD

Well. During the party, I received one Christmas present.

It was based on number that you took from an angpau.  They kept the number inside it.

Ask us to change the angpau with a mini size white paper.

Of course, different number different size of present.

I was 29 and I got chocolate. How unlucky?

There were bags, glasses for drinking, containers, bottles and etc. 

I want glass laaa...  haixx..

Nevermind anyway. Better then those who didn't receive.

This is a Christmas present given by God through 3rd person!

The first present of the year!  Thanks! =D

Talk about christmas present. Does Santa really exist?

Well. I don't believe he does exist.

If yes, how could it possible for him to deliver all the gifts within a night?

To whole world eh. Not one house only.  =O

It was just a fairy tales. =]

Many people have been spreading the news about tomorrow is end of the world.

Well. I don't know should believe or not.

I have no idea at all. Of course I am kind of afraid too.

But who knows if it really didn't happen?

What should we do if really happened?

My answer is BE POSITIVE.

What a Night

It's 12 27a.m in the midnight when I write this post.

Feel so lonely tonight. Feel so left out. Feel so pain.
Reason? I don't know..

Listening to musics. Only musics can express my current feelings.

Suddenly Feel that my heart is pain..  Don't know why..

Can I find someone and spit out my feelings to him or her?

What if he or she doesn't know how to keep secret?

Ouchhh.. when I need someone, everyone's gone..

Who should I spit out my feelings? God?

Can I cry? :'( I can't stand for it anymore..

This feeling has been in my heart for a moment..

But I keep on telling myself to endure..

Right now this moment, I really cannot stand for it anymore!

Hello??  Anyone out there??  :(

*Guffaw*

No ones out there... so, means that I have to stay alone forever.. :(

FOREVER ALONE. THE END.

什么星座最难搞？

对我而言，水瓶座宝宝最难搞了！

他们的性格多半都是忽冷忽热的。

所谓的冷就是冷血。

所谓的热就是热血。

想就知道冷血动物很恐怖。更何况是人类呢？

水瓶座的性格会让你又爱又恨。

因为他们拥有冷和热的性格。可以说是一半好一半坏。

最讨厌水瓶座的冷血一面了。好可恶。

他们最爱把自己的愤怒往别人身上发泄。

尤其是那些无辜受害者。

无端端的被他们骂。讨厌啊。无缘无故受牵连！

当他们骂你时，会让你自己以为你做错什么事。

然后就连续几天玩捉迷藏不找你。

让你以为你们之间的友情到此为止。

冷血的水瓶座会破坏友情！最容易破坏！

当他们热血时，脾气就没那么躁了。

这就是我对水瓶座宝宝们的看法。

-完-

爱情真的那么重要吗？=O

看了朋友的部落格，就想到了这个标题。

到底真正的爱情是怎么样的？

别人常常说的'幸福'又是怎么样的？

两个人在一起，什么时候是最幸福的？

甚么状况下才是幸福的？

为什么这个世间要有爱情的存在？

难道没有情侣就真的没有后代吗？

爱情让一个人容易受到伤害。

爱情能够改变一个人的一切。包括性格。

爱情能让一个人情绪受干扰。

爱情也能伤害友情。

当你发觉身边朋友强当第三者时，友情问题就出现了。

尽管是好朋友也都会因为爱情而背叛自己。

所谓真爱要等待。我们何必着急呢？

何必让自己受伤害呢？

何必让自己的情绪被受干扰呢？

何必等待一个不该等的情人呢？

为何不慢慢找呢？留的青山在，不怕没柴烧啊。

为什么不利用时间慢慢找呢？

这个天下的帅哥美女一大把，不必担心找不到适合自己的。

也许那些拍过拖的人丢失了恋人觉得自己不中用，没关系。

把它当成一种教训并告诉自己以后一定可以找到更好的！

别因为这场爱情而伤心，那是不值得的。

尽管再多么地伤心也好，那段已分手的爱情仍然不会回来。

人是要勇往直前的。往前看是最重要的。

把失去的东西当教训。从中学习。

相信自己！=D

我的性格，言行举止到底是怎么样的？

人间蒸发无数天了。对不起。懒惰上来。

这几天想了很多东西，多半都是没完没了的事情。

突然，想到了一个问题。

我在想，我这个人的性格与言行举止到底是怎么样的？

我觉得我几乎有遗传爸爸臭脾气的性格。

每一次见到不爽的东西，就会觉得很厌烦。开始唠叨。开始不耐烦。

红阿姨来找我时更明显了。糟糕了！

我怎么可以拥有臭脾气这种性格呀？！

我也觉得我这个人蛮爱好管闲事，甚至不停地烦身边的朋友。

可是，我就是不知道为什么还会有人要跟我做朋友哦？

我会爱好管闲事是因为我认为那是关心别人的一种方式。

但有时候我就是太过关心别人以致他们认为我很厌烦。

没办法。我就是这种人。想改善但不知怎么改。

我也很痴心！想叫我放下深爱多年的东西？

慢慢等！那是不可能的！我不会轻易放下的！

我的宝贝迷你枕头已陪伴我十六年了！

想叫我丢掉？想都别想！连和我借都不行！

我和它培养了感情！没有它，就没东西好遮耳朵了！

没有它，晚上睡眠时耳朵空空的。感觉没有安全感。

我也发觉我很爱讲话，尤其是好朋友。

感情特别特别好的朋友。跟他们在一起时，话永远都说不完。

嘻嘻。我最爱讲话了。连老师都是我的朋友。

我不得不承认这点。很喜欢和老师交谈。

毕竟是他们传授知识给我们的。

每一个人都有嘴巴，不是用来讲话，那用来做什么？

讲话别讲太多，适可而止就行。=）

我唯一最明显的言行举止就是我很粗鲁。

但粗鲁的我并不代表我不会做家务！

我粗鲁也并不代表我没朋友。

我粗鲁也并不代表我不会害羞。

每个人都会害羞。

我的害羞程度不知多少，只知道如果是陌生人，我就害羞的要死。

跟别人出去玩吃顿饭也少不了害羞。

因为不懂他们想吃什么，不敢自己决定。

还有当我要见多年未见的朋友时，我一定害羞不得了。

不知该怎么开始我们的对话。气氛尴尬。

除此之外，我也爱大谈别人的坏话！

尤其是说我最讨厌的朋友的坏话。

我这么做就是非要他们尝一尝身边没朋友的感觉。

我不是故意要那么做。谁先惹我，我就用这种方式攻击他们。

不懂我自己认为自己性格怎么样是对的吗？

Nephews & Nieces

我的宝贝侄儿--威威（24.07.2012出生） =D

三个坏蛋外甥男外甥女---庭稳，庭幹，庭绢（三姐弟）

宝贝外甥女－林萱瑀（１２．１２．２０１２）

朋友聚一聚是什么感觉？

我在想，和朋友出去有什么不好？有什么好？

我认为，和朋友出去唯一最好的就是能和多年不见的朋友一起聚在一起。

朋友相聚也许会很尴尬。尤其是多年不见。

一下突然面对面讲话，难免少不了尴尬呀。

不过只要其中之一开始讲话，很快就会聊得很投入。

那种以前和朋友聚在一起八卦的感觉又很快回来了。

我最喜欢这种感觉。越聊越大声。聊得全部发神经！

对我而言，那才是相聚！相聚和乐融融！

聊天方式就是要这样！

相反的，和朋友就去的缺点就是钱包容易大出血。

所谓空手而归。就是这个意思了。

钱包满满又厚厚的带去，回来时却是一个空空又薄薄的钱包。

每个人出去一定少不了花钱的。当然啦。

还有其他缺点及优点，不知是什么。想一想先吧。

我各人蛮懒惰出的。多半是因为钱包空空。

要出，是要看什么类型的朋友。

好姐妹我才一起出。没资格当我姐妹的就妄想天籁。

各界朋友们，倘若要出去，一定要小心选跟你一起出去的朋友。

现在的治安不好。万一发生什么事，担心你的永远是你的家人。

不是你的朋友。

#BANDDDD

Hey Blog. How ya? I am off coloured. Getting better now. :) 

I have added some christmas songs since it's around the corner. 

Those Christmas songs were performed by Green Chords. They are awesome! 

Albeit isn't awesome as foreign countries', at least they are the best performance in Sarawak. 

I swear! =D I love band club. Honestly. No lies. 

I miss this club a lots. I can't deny that songs performed by band musical instruments are awesome. 

I wonder how much of time do they spend on practicing the songs? 

It's hard, anyway. Need a lot of time though . 

No matter how hard or how difficult it is, I wish i can join the club again! 

It's superb! I love this club!!! =D 

My school have orchestra but i dislike. All are performed using piano, violin and choirs. 

Quite nice but to me it's old-fashioned. =P  

No offense. I love songs that are performed by saxophone such as band club. 

Much awesome than piano and violin. :D 

Why my school can't open a band club? >< HAIYOOO. 

#08.12.2012 LIFE #CHRISTMAS TREE #SHARING

Hey blog. Just came back from airport an hour ago.

Quite disappointed with sibu airport.

There are five gate for passengers to embark their plane.

But only one gate opened -.-

Those gate I meant is actually a place where they park their aeroplanes.

Because of this, many flight were forced to delay.

My parents' one of them. Delayed for one hour plus.

Horrible. Time is precious!!

Well. Skip it. Hopefully their service will have some improvement.

I have already set my Christmas tree in my house.

Few weeks ago. Yeah. We can't wait for it.

I am endeavouring my best to memorise all the lyrics. 

Christmas songs I mean.

Have been singing them for years but failed to memorise them.

This is to show how fail I am to be children of God.
Actually, Christmas this event is to celebrate Jesus' birthday.

God's son called Jesus.  He suffered under pontius pilate, was crucified, died and buried.

The reason why we celebrate good Friday and Easter sunday is because jesus had descended to the dead(good Friday).

On the third day he rose again(easter sunday), he ascended into heaven, and is seated at the right hand of the Father (God).

That's all. Sharing is caring. No vulgar words.

Bye.

Morning =D

hey blog. Good morning =D

This is the first time I wake so early during this holiday.

Slept at eleven sonething yesterday.  Woke up at 5 45 just now.

Ouch. That's tired.

Was on bed since ten. But I couldn't sleep.

My sleeping time during holiday is 1 am LOL

well. Going out with tuition teachers and students later.

Wish I can have some fun.

Bye.

Dream of My Occupation

Hey blog. Had a great day today with my bestie. :) 

Hmm.. My pediatrics doctor told me something flabbergasted. 

Last week i went to her hospital and she told me. 

She told me that her hospital is offering a nursing course whereby it's free. 

But with purpose. That is we have to work for the hospital while studying. 

Something like on-job study or work study programme.

In chinese, it meant ''half work half study''. It's free for the school fee. 

And we still receive our income every month. I was like : WOW! So good? Seriously not? 

My pediatrics doctor used to be my saviour for twice since i was born. 

She saved me for twice. Thanks God i am still alive! =D 

Well.  Talking about the nursing course. It's part of my dream too. 

But have to work when study. Kind of tired though. Anyway, i will consider about it =) 

It's a great chance for me. I shall appreciate that. 

For your information, my dream is all about doctor thingies. I do not know why too. 

I love watching any dramas or movies that germaned to doctor or nurse. 

I just want to watch them . They are touching . 

There are many part of human body so means that there are many fields of doctors. 

For example, paediatrics, neurology, psychology, veterinarian and etc. 

I am more into obstetrics and gynaecology, paediatrics and nursing. 

They are my dream. One of the most important reason i love to be one of them is I LOVE BABIES!  

I love taking care of people too. So, nursing is one of it =D 

Mummy said will consider the suggestion given by my pediatrics doctor. =D 

I will have to consider properly =D Teehee. 

Have to work extremely harder to succeed =) 

I want to sit aeroplane!!

Dear blog. I am getting better. Thanks God.

Well. You know what?

I am getting more jealous when I saw people posting status about where are they going!

Most of them went to the place that I have never been before.

When I saw these statues, I meant it.

I want to sit aeroplane to go anywhere I like.

Actually, mum had already planned to go China at the end of the year.

Mum wanted to book the tour package with travel agent.

She had already confirmed.

But due to something happened so sudden, mum cancelled the plan.

Aiyo. Why like that?

I don't want to stay in kuching during holiday laa.

At least go travelling for some fun. Go and relax!

Biggest aim is playing, shopping and of course the snow that I have never enjoyed before!

To be honest, I love winter season the most.

I wonder how cold is it when comes to winter.

And especially when there's snowing. I bet it must be froze like hell.

Still, I would like to experience the cold myself!

Mummy, faster get another plan and go travelling!

I don't want to stay in kuchingggg! 

Boringgggg.  I need some fun. Teehee.

黄梨，你是凶手！

回来了。肚子他妈的不爽。

鲜血来潮第一天。可是我是笨蛋。

我居然不知道来着这个的时候不可以吃黄梨。

害我和家人一起吃披萨。

刚开始吃时没什么感觉。

过后肚子就开始发出不爽的讯号了。

原以为是食物中毒。谁知，不是。

因为老妈也是第一天！是她告诉我的。

现在俩母女一起受苦。讨厌啊。

黄梨，我恨死你了！！是你害我们女人！

今晚睡不着的话，我就找你算帐！

你永远都是女人的凶手！

凶手凶手！！

First day of December 2012

**Knock Knock** I am back.

Well. Today is the first day of December in the year 2012.

Last month in the year 2012. I will be having spm next year.

A very vital examination in my life.

Working hard for it. Trying my best.

Good luck to myself. :)

Went to pbk tuition for exam just now.

An exam that will determine whether I can join principal's class or not.

Thanks God I passed the exam with either grade A or B.

I have no idea how much I obtained.

I only know that I can join the class. Hooray!

Countdown 20 more days to my brother's birthday.

And also the rumours about weather going to turn dark for three days.

Shall I believe that?  Well, I do not believe. 

Even though scientists had confirmed.  But who knows if it really doesn't happen? 

Be positive anyway.

If really happened, I wish to do something beneficial.

Or anything that I have never done before.

I have decided to get a branded wallet for my beloved brother.

His wallet is full and couldn't fit in anymore cards.

It begins to lacerate for the leather.

So, decided to get him a new one as his present.

Oops. I forgot that I can't celebrate his birthday.

Cause of popo passed away. Haven't reach hundred days yet.

Sorry about that, my dear koko.  :(

Don't worry, I will use the free time I have to search a nice one for you. :)

Countdown 24 more days to Christmas! 

Can't wait for this event to come! Seriously!

I can't wait to attend sunset mass on Christmas Eve! 

I can't wait to receive Christmas presents!

Can't wait to go visiting! Go and have a sip of wine!  Hehe.

Can't wait for the spring, boulevard and plaza merdeka's Christmas performance!!

They are nice!  Love those Christmas songs! :DDD

THE END.